Lockdown Lament

For hours I lolled in Samadhi

Then gave that up for fags and tea.

Had baths then brunch by ten past three

Then dined on wine-soaked crisps and brie.

 

I ‘went’ to work thirteen days late

Thought long and hard about my fate

Said the PC threw me out

(It wasn’t coz I laid about).

 

They didn’t want to know my woes

So off I pottered to Tesco’s

With newly written clean CV

Which only stated

‘PhD’.

 

That didn’t work

So back I came

In undeployed

Unfocused shame.

 

So then I learnt to play the bass

(Coz that might save the human race)

But got a writ from thirty-four

Who sued (they couldn’t take much more).

 

Fizzy Wisdom

16th April 2020

Potential

 

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In the deep cavernous realm of the Absolute

A seedling lay dormant, her existence unplanned.

Each moment was an unaspiring pause

Which blossomed into the next without agenda

Beckoning forth the emerging light

As a series of spiral imprints

On Creation’s canvas.

Nothing will be done until it needs doing

All shall be known when it needs knowing

In the meantime the Plan reveals

Its unique map in perfect timing, Heaven sent.

 

Copyright Fizzy Wisdom

13th April 2020

Home

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I sink into your smile:

A velveteen plushness

Your arms firm and girdered –

A cantilever for my aching body.

My heart a compass for yours

Your shoulder a rock

Where I lay my mossy head

Thoughts drift away

Like petals in the wind

Your spirit my harbour

I am Home.

 

Copyright Fizzy Wisdom 2020 

Re-birth

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Some people might think I was born yesterday

And I was.

Part of me kicked and screamed as I pushed out in insurrection

In defence against the resurrection

Of All There Ever Is and Was

Waiting to come out of its hiding place.

Copyright Fizzy Wisdom 2020 

 

Everyone

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Everyone wants somebody

But no-one wants just anybody

Or anyone who used to be a somebody:

A has-been bean-ass nobody.

 

Everyone wants to be a somebody

As no-one wants to be just anybody

A somebody who used to be a nobody

Has reason to believe in everybody.

 

No-one would dare diss a nobody

For none who done dust dissed a somebody

And somebody body slammed anybody

And that caused a no known riot.

 

So no-one has one known on somebody

And anybody knows they want somebody

But someone is innocent of everybody

And no-one is now none the wiser.

 

Copyright Fizzy Wisdom

8th February 2020

The Void

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A resting place for words unspoken

Chamber for the muted scream

Tears damned in, like stagnant waters

Yearning for a flowing stream.

 

‘Tuts’ and ‘ahs’ and sheepish glances

False encounters, friendship trials

(Unyielding pain a fair exchange

For awkward, insincere smiles?)

 

This heart a mere reference point

And trauma just a word

Solipsism – the ‘educated’ path

For grief unheard.

 

Copyright Fizzy Wisdom 2019 

Present Me

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‘I’m sad’, I said.

‘Feel into it now,’ said Present Me.

I let the sadness swish around,

Lapping at the edges of my heart

In gentle melancholic waves,

And then it ebbed away.

 

‘I’m lonely’, I said.

‘Be present to the sounds of the trees whistling in the wind’

Said Present Me.

I listened.

I became the trees and the wind.

And the loneliness ebbed away.

 

‘I’m scared’ I said,

‘Be present to your feet on the ground’

Said Present Me.

I felt the specks of dust tickle my toes

And the earth take my heels.

The fear ebbed away.

 

‘I’m without’ I said,

‘Be present to the fullness of the moment’

Said Present Me.

I let the in breath caress my lungs

And the out breath rinse my cares

Then the lack ebbed away.

 

‘I need love’ I said

‘Look inside’

Said Present Me

I rested my gaze deep within

And the need to be loved ebbed away.

 

Copyright Fizzy Wisdom 2019